I am Lost for Words

I said I can’t.

I didn’t say I didn’t want to.
I said I can’t.
You said I have to.
I said I can’t.
You said I must.
I did it.
It was scorching.
I don’t like it.
It was sizzling.
I don’t understand it.
It was blistering.
I don’t see a need for it.
I am burning.
Inside and out.
More than that,
My heart aches.
I am dejected.
I am just so disappointed.
For I said I can't
but you said I must.
It is crazy.
And I am lost for words.